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So I mentioned that I may do some video blogging (vlog) this year…here you go. Nothing terribly interesting, unless you’re fascinated with snow, or have never had to take an hour to drive 18 miles before.
Also, the snow we got for 2.5 days? Yeah, it now has a name since it moved out east (Hercules…seriously), because that’s how the East coast does it…sissies. IT’S JUST A SNOW STORM.
And I liked it.
But I do have to quantify my definition of ‘like’.
My dear husband accompanied me to see it, just to humor me. We had no idea what it was really about, just that it involved Tom Hanks as Walt Disney, and something about Mary Poppins.
I love Mary Poppins.
What we discovered was that it was not really about Mary Poppins, but rather about the author of the Mary Poppins stories, and her childhood struggles that led to her writings.
My husband was bored. He claims he ‘liked it’, and wasn’t bored, but he lies. He was utterly bored. I give him props for not pulling out his phone and playing Candy Crush.
Why did I like it? Because I love learning about backstories and WHY things are they way they are. I’ve never read the Mary Poppins books, but I do love the movie (spoiler alert—much of the movie is NOT like the books). It was slower-moving, and much more thought-provoking than the general public can handle. It was Oscar-caliber, and I have seen chatter of just that.
In the interest of full disclosure, I rarely ever see Oscar-nominated films. They bore me. Usually because the topics are not things I’m interested in. But Disney? Mary Poppins? I was drawn in, hook, line, and sinker.
Short story long, I truly did enjoy the movie, though I would have to consider the person I’m talking to if they asked me if they should see it. The commercials are a bit misleading…there isn’t a lot of actual Disney in it, but a lot of Walt, a little sadness, several fantastic lessons, and is definitely worth the time if you enjoy learning about how things come into existence.
That reminds me, I better start looking this instant if I’m to be Mary Poppins for Halloween this year. So many smart outfits to choose from, but destined to be quite the project.
Happy 2014 to you all, and cheers to a great start!
(PS, my birthday is in a week. Y’know…as a side note.)
You may have noticed my absence for quote a few weeks. Whoops. Holidays take a lot of my attention, and we’ve been so dang busy living, I forgot to describe that living for my couple of readers. Good thing Santa has already come and gone, or I’d have coal in my stocking!
Seeing as there are only 4 hours left in 2013, it’s inevitable that a little look backward at the year is coming. Do you do that? Take inventory of your year, decide what to change, fix, start, stop, etc? Obviously, I do.
I will say that initially, 2013 for me was a frustrating year. I don’t want to call is disappointing, because there is never disappointment when personal growth and good health are present. However, frustration can exist in this situation.
I’m frustrated with my progress on existing goals. I know that this is purely my own fault, and I recognize my lack of effort for too much of the year. So, in essence, I’m frustrated with myself. Business-wise, I had a plateau to stand on. Perhaps even some downhill action, if I look too closely. But what that means is that I was able to learn what NOT to do, and how NOT to conduct business for the future. Definite learning experience, which means it was not a complete loss.
I’m frustrated at the fact that I seem to not have as strong of friendship ties as I thought. I’m a person that will do anything for a friend in need, and loyalty is a big deal for me. What I learned in 2013 is that not all of my friends feel the same way in return. Disappointing, yes, but it has taught me that I just need to create new relationships, and make it a point to strengthen ones that are existing and worthy. I’ve decided to get myself a stationery set, and start writing letters again. I love technology and the quick connection of emails, texts, facebook walls and tweets, but I sincerely miss just talking to people, and hearing their voices, or reading their hand-written words. #oldschool
The more I think about it, the more it becomes clear that I can’t afford to not make 2014 a stellar year. I have no choice. If I don’t, then three hundred and sixty-five days from now, I’ll be no better off, and lamenting the same things. The pain of staying the same must be strong for me in order to make a change.
I’m feeling that pain. So much more than in the past. I can’t abide with being comfortably miserable, or just surviving instead of living. It just doesn’t work for me.
Random thought, but I think I may work on doing a video journal/blog as often as possible. Sometimes, I can get a point across better when I speak it, rather than typing.
(Warning: sensitive topic to follow. Please do not read if you cannot handle talk of death)
So I have a fear.
I have a fear of death.
Not the normal fear of dying, itself, but rather death and what it does to those you leave behind.
I have a distinct and paralyzing fear of attending wakes. I just can’t do it. I figured out why only recently, though.
I’m afraid of how they make me look at the future, how I imagine myself in that position.
It makes me take a look at my current situation, and what the repercussions would be if I were to not make it past tomorrow. Would I be leaving my family in a good place? Could they be taken care of, bills be paid, finances not a burden?
What about those whose lives I’ve touched? Are there enough positive ripples? Did I truly make the most of my time here? Did I help enough people so that it would be apparent in the attendance of my service?
Nobody wants to consider their own passing, nor that of anyone they know. But I’ve seen it too often, recently. It makes me feel that I haven’t done enough, yet. I haven’t put my family in the best position possible. I haven’t created something for them that will last. I haven’t helped nearly enough people, and I haven’t been insistent enough with people that I know could benefit. I haven’t formed a legacy.
I hope this makes you think a little about your own life, and what your answers to my personal questions might be for yourself. I feel like I owe myself and my family more than what I have given already. We need and deserve more. What about you? Wouldn’t you agree that you owe it to yourself and your loved ones to make an honest attempt at bringing more to the table? Look at the next five years of your future. Do you see your situation improving if you change nothing? Look at the past five years. Are you in a better position now than you were back then? Have you tried to change it, and failed? How can you change your next five?
In my opinion, the Rolling Stones had it wrong. Time is not on our side. Time keeps moving, whether we are here or not. It is up to us to make the most of the time we are given, and since we never know when that may run out, we cannot waste a single minute of it.
The final decision is up to you, though. Will you do nothing, and change nothing, accepting whatever you are handed? Or will you take a step to get back in control of your future? I took the step, and though it is off the beaten path, it is by far the most sure-footed step I’ve ever made in my life. I’ve acknowledged my fear, and accepted the challenge of breaking it down. I hope to help others do the same, but it can only be done if you wish it so.
What’s your fear? Or better, what’s your hope for your future? What are your goals? I love to hear what others dream about, because it reminds me that there is still hope in the world, waiting for someone to help it grow.
If you aren’t on Twitter, you can’t understand the excitement one feels when a celeb you follow tweets you directly. I hope this will not go over anyone’s heads.
I watch The Voice. Not just for delicious eye-candy named Adam Levine, but for the sheer talent that is broadcast. Last season, I got bored toward the end because it was mainly country, and I am just not a country music fan. But the season before was spectacular, in terms of talent I enjoyed, My favorite? Cody Belew.
Cody reminded me of a young George Michael (post-WHAM! era, into the Freedom 90 time). He was so adorable, with his southern self, wearing his pinstriped button-down tucked into his jeans. A-dor-a-ble. Watch his audition, especially at the 2:45 mark.